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For all you 400 something military S/O’s I have on here, have your men draw you pictures on deployments. They will make you smile in the worst depression.

For all you 400 something military S/O’s I have on here, have your men draw you pictures on deployments. They will make you smile in the worst depression.

Today is the one month mark…

for the day that I can jump into your arms and have you say to me “we did it” with the biggest smile on your face. Teary kisses, emotional hugs and the heaviest weight being lifted off of our shoulders. This is what I’ve lived for the past year. I’ve dreamt about our reunion every day, every hour, every minute and every night. I’ve cried myself to sleep with unforgiving amounts of depression and separation anxiety in my body. I sit and wonder what life will be like knowing that you aren’t ever going to have to leave me again. We won’t have to hold each other close, afraid of the minutes being lost before our eyes. This is it, we have forever together. This is our life now.

I told you I would wait for you.

today is a special day…

See, our relationship is kind of confusing. We dated in ‘06 (I was a little baby, almost a senior in high school…Justin was 23….but we shouldn’t go there…) then fell back in each other’s arms last Spring when we realized the true love we had. It was funny how it happened. I was in a serious relationship with a complete loser for 3 years and we got into a fight because he made me walk home from a party the day before (such a special dude), therefore I wasn’t with him this particular night. I was on Facebook and Justin messages me, mind you, I haven’t talked to him in almost 4 years. The relationship started with talking about my happiness or lack thereof. It ended with Justin saying, “you know we are going to be together in the end, yea?” and I said, “yeah… I know”. Needless to say, it was a pretty powerful conversation for Facebook. I ended up breaking with my boyfriend the next day with no real explanation, I just knew it needed to be done. I deserved better and Justin was just that. Things sped up fast due to know that he was going to leave for a year on August 2nd for the deployment. We got engaged in a month and then married in about 7 months. I had no idea what I was getting myself into with this deployment, I had never dated anyone in the military before and I thought it would never happen to me. Most people definitely questioned our relationship moving along so fast but let me explain this way… I used to ask the question to my mom when I was little, “how will I know when I want to marry someone?” and she used to say, “when you know, you know”. Welp, I knew. This deployment has taken so much out on me physically and emotionally, but what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger right? I knew I had to wait for him. He was the one. We are the perfect match and we’ll get our fairy tale “happily ever after” this summer when he comes home. I’m so lucky to be able to spend the rest of my life with somebody so caring, so handsome, so strong, so loyal, so brilliant and so funny. (There’s way more things I could say, but this is getting long…) Anyways.. Today is our one year “official” dating anniversary.

Happy Anniversary Justin, I took a huge leap of faith for you and it was the best decision of my life. I love you more than words could say. Come home soon darling.

dear Justin,

It’s been almost nine months since you first left me. Every single day has been bitter sweet. Bitter for the fact that I yearn for your physical presence. Sweet for the fact that after this is all over, I know that we will live happily ever after. At first I was scared, for numerous reasons; safety, lack of conversation, and keeping our relationship alive. I’m not scared anymore. I’ve realized that you are the strongest man I know and some could say, invincible. I can talk to you frequently and I feel as though our love grows stronger everyday that we are away from each other. It’s been a pretty remarkable journey. It’s a year that we will want to remember because it will be the greatest accomplishment of our lives. Yet, it’s a year we will want to forget due to the immense depression and separation anxiety that both of us have faced. We only have a little over two months until the deployment is over and we can be in each other’s arms forever. I wouldn’t trade this experience for anything in the world. Saying “YES” to marrying you and knowing that I needed to be here for you this year in a time of war, was the most rewarding decision I have ever made. There will be nothing we can’t overcome as a couple after this. I’d wait forever for you…

I love you.

<3 Lauren